If only I could sleep this well

One liners

Today was the day for quick retorts. My favourite: I say to Mr Toddler: "I'm cross because you pushed Mr Baby" he answers: "You're not cross! You're Mummy!!!". Now that could mean: you can't possibly be cross with me because you are my mum, but I suspect he just doesn't know what cross means...

And then, he met a lovely girl called Emily yesterday who made us some scrummy cakes. Mr Toddler kept asking about her and her cakes, I said I'd make him some if he wanted, he answers: "No mummy, Emily's are better"

Slingmeet in the sunshine

Mr Baby is in the vest! Mr Toddler ran off to play and was not seen for ages...

A few thoughts

Hi all, I haven't written in a while... I have had a lot to think about, including some very personal stuff which is hard to put here without upsetting my loved ones. I have also been thinking about the way I write and think about things, I went to visit my family in Italy for a few weeks and I have come home much humbled. I think that I can be very arrogant and opinionated at times. When I was on the plane on the way back, a Danish lady sitting near us said something lovely and important, she looked at my children and said: "Mine were the same, two boys, two years apart, it's a lot of fun, isn't it?" and this was a bit of a shock as I realized that yes it is a lot of fun, I have been so militant and obsessed with the right and natural way to bring up children and always seeing and worrying about the problems that we have mixed with a sense of superiority that I am sleeping with and carrying my babies so I must be in the right. And I thought to myself, yes, being true to a human continuum is important but I'm sure that native mothers are not discussing it and tearing it apart like we do, what about the fun? What about just getting on with it.
So I now pledge to have as much fun with my little ones as I can, I am honest about my desire to home school: I don't want to be separated from them for 6 hours a day, I want to share in their life and their learning as much as I can.
So I will stop going on online forums and slagging off those who do it differently, life is too short and it doesn't make a difference anyway, you're just preaching to the converted. I just want to get on with it and enjoy my life with these wonderful wonderful children I have!